Embers of Desperation

It started like a joke,…

some hellos… some goodbyes,

some ‘heys’ and other ‘take cares’.

Who would’ve guessed it would become something akin to lighting a match in a room full of gas?

I choke, I struggle, I strive to get a whiff of the clear air which I clamor for …

but these embers, the embers of my desperation, seek to consummately and unabashedly consume me in their wake.

The ‘heys’ turned to tight snuggles and the goodbyes to succulent embraces.

The ‘take cares’ metamorphosed into deep kisses which I longed for without inhibitions.

When we talk, all I want to do is taste your lips. I want time to stop. Just for us to take our time in turn.

And just like this raging fire building up within me, I want you all to myself,

all for me and no one else…

Yet the more I get of you, the more I want of you…the embers of desperation.

I Just…

I’m distressed,

This tug at my heart is too heavy to bear and the tears just seem to find their way down my cheeks…
The world is weighing down its heavy axle on me and stuff isn’t going how I planned,

Everything seems to be going wrong and everyone around me is just crazy and mad at me…

But I don’t mind all of this, I know there’s you right there, always with me, compact in the recesses of my being.
I just wonder, do you think of me the way I do you?…

When you’re overwhelmed with emotions, when all your expectations of life are being fulfilled,
when your looking all fly in ’em jeans and gorgeous in ’em pics
When you’re the center of attention and all those envious eyes are on you,

it seems they all just want a piece of you coz damn! You’ve made it big!….
I just wonder, do you think of me the way I do you?…

When you’re looking for love, or just a hug maybe,

when you’re looking for someone to say just the right thing, push the right buttons, touch the right place…
When all you see is friendship, yet I’m right here and can offer you more,

when all you crave is a kiss of assurance, so tender and yielding, yet warm and insistent…
I just wonder, do you ever think of me?…

I just wonder, do you think of me, the way I do you?…

Over It

I’m over your smile…
I’m over your charm…
I’m over your firm grip on me…

I’m over your sexy laugh…
I’m over your great physique…
I’m over your tender words…
You’re truth, which are lies… am so over it!

The moonlight on my pillow was your tender caress…
The smell of flowers in the field was you’re breathing against my lobe…

The rain from the clouds turned to my bitter tears…
and the persistent heartbeat in your chest I could feel in my hand.

Now when I look into your eyes, all I see is sorrow…
When I look at your hands, I see destruction…
When I hear your voice, it’s all effervescent toxicities…

I only realize then, that I’m over your charm, over your sweetness,

over your promises and over your touch…

But it’s all a lie, ‘cause when my lips touch yours,

I’m lost all over again…
Lost in your deep sentimental eyes…and that smile…

The smile which made me fall for you the very first time.